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Christmas 2009

  • Dec. 10th, 2009 at 1:06 PM

I'm going to play Santa and only get people who have been truly good this year...

Backstabbed

  • Dec. 8th, 2009 at 11:00 PM

I am completely appalled.

Tucson Pride 2009

  • Oct. 12th, 2009 at 5:49 PM

Kristine Alley and Pretty Little Lips
LOL

Exboyfriend from Colorado does Porn

  • Sep. 21st, 2009 at 7:43 PM

While stumbling around some videos on aebn.com - I saw someone that I have not seen in over eight years - Jacob.
He goes by the name Sage Daniels now

http://www.myspace.com/sagedanielshotstripper

I am not against anyone in the adult entertainment biz - however - I was a bit shocked to see him in these films.

I had so many memories with this person that I do not even know where to begin. A memory comes to mind of several people living in the house in Colorado. Numerous parties, drugs, and sex with a knife so to speak.

I added him on myspace but it doesn't look like he has logged on in awhile.

Sep. 19th, 2009

  • 7:57 PM

Two Demerits and Counting...
What is up with my friends lately?
- ' get mad cause I don't invite - then when I do - they don't show up

Summer Lovin

  • Aug. 26th, 2009 at 10:10 PM

Many seek a love for the summer
I've had a bit of lusts instead

Older Men and Long Time Friends

  • Aug. 18th, 2009 at 8:25 PM

Lately my sex life has consisted of older men that have some sort of intellectual standing. I have been stimulated by their life experiences and worldly awareness that most younger gay men are lacking. Maybe its because I started out my adult hood and openness far before those in my age group. Although I make every effort to socialize with them - I do not have much to relate to. My experience is so unique that the only age group that I can have a decent conversation to is between 35-40.

I have been going out to some bars in Tucson that are more for this age group and absolutely love it. I no longer go out to clubs to just get drunk, I am actually getting some conversation.


I'm not sure if I have any room for close friends. There are several that have attempted to make an effort but I do not find them appealing to allow them into my life. So for those select few that I have allowed - I hope they feel that I treasure them - even if I am a private person.

Dating has been a bit of an obstacle. Some flake out or feel intimidated for a second go. I would used to think that it was me that was the cause but now that I am older - I can see how many men are still insecure about their sexuality.

I am having some difficulty with having my close friends intermingle with each other. For example - If I hang out with them all at the same time - each complete for my attention - and sometimes it is hard for me to spread out my time with them individually. So in the meantime - I think I will just hang out with each separately. I'm not trying to offend - just trying to be a friend that I should be.

Meanwhile - I am taking each day a new adventure at a time and have not planned or penned anything for the future. Living in the moment seems a bit stress-less for now.

Aug. 11th, 2009

  • 2:23 PM

I learned how to play pool!
So much fun

Six Years Ago...

  • Jul. 26th, 2009 at 6:34 PM

I was reading some journal entries from 2003 and I just have to say that my writing and personality has so much more evolved since then.
I used to sound so dingy, naive and inconsiderate of my surroundings.
Now I despise the very same people with those types of personalities.

Patience

  • Jul. 24th, 2009 at 7:12 PM

Patience (pā-shəns) is the state of endurance under difficult circumstances, which can mean persevering in the face of delay or provocation without becoming annoyed or upset; or exhibiting forbearance when under strain, especially when faced with longer-term difficulties. It is also used to refer to the character trait of being steadfast.


My "Patience" seems to be greatly tested this month by numerous people including family, friends, government, jobs, cars, money and reality.

Sometimes I feel like I'm the only one in the world who has the initiative to use common sense and forethought. I'm not sure why people seek my knowledge in these two qualities. I didn't learn these from someone, I learned these on my own.

On the upside, I start work on Tuesday. It can't come any sooner.

Jul. 12th, 2009

  • 11:10 PM

Lets just say that this entire month has been a roller coaster of random dips and turns.

What Really Happened....

  • Jun. 24th, 2009 at 6:03 PM
I'm tired of people's shit
To those if you who really wanted to know why I was fired yesterday, here is the letter that I had to write to the Unemployment office:  

ARIZONA DEPARTMENT OF ECONOMIC SECURITY

EMPLOYMENT ADMINISTRATION

PO BOX 29225

PHOENIX AZ 85038

FAX: 520-770-3357

FAX: 602-364-1211

 

RE:  STEPHEN DEAN

ANSWER TO DISCHARGE QUESTIONS:

LIST THE HOURS AND DAYS YOU WERE SCHEDULED TO WORK:

SUNDAY 10AM – 7PM

MONDAY TUESDAY WEDNESDAY FRIDAY 12PM – 9PM

 

WHAT WAS THE NAME AND TITLE OF THE PERSON WHO DISCHARGED YOU?

MELISSA MARTINEZ – TEAM LEAD

 

WHAT WAS YOUR POSITION/TITLE AT THE TIME OF THE DISCHARGE?

CUSTOMER SERVICE AGENT

 

WHAT WAS THE LAST DAY YOU PERFORMED SERVICES FOR THIS EMPLOYER?

JUNE 23, 2009

 

WHAT DATE DID YOUR EMPLOYER DISCHARGE YOU?

JUNE 23, 2009

 

WHAT REASON DID THE EMPLOYER GIVE YOU FOR YOUR DISCHARGE?

CALL AVOIDANCE

 

EXPLAIN WHY YOU FEEL YOU WERE DISCHARGED (PROVIDE DATES)

I feel I was retaliated by my Team Lead, Melissa Martinez, for reporting to her manager, Pam Idler, for missing commission and Martinez’s poor performance of a supervisor.

 

Below is a timeline of the events that lead up to my termination at Cox Communications:

*ENCLOSED ARE SOME EMAILS SHOWING DOCUMENTATION OF THE FOLLOWING EVENTS*

April 3, 2009 – Reported to Team Lead, Melissa Martinez that I was having problems entering sales leads for our Sierra Vista area *EMAIL ENCLOSED

April 14, 2009 – Reported to Mission Control and Melissa Martinez of ongoing Icall problems I have been having with my phone.  Problems included lost calls, disconnects, log offs and hang ups. *EMAIL ENCLOSED

May 13, 2009 – Melissa Martinez emailed asking if I had any Icall issues.  Replied and advised that I was having several issues throughout the day including lost calls, disconnects, freezes, log offs and hang ups. *EMAIL ENCLOSED

 

 

(CONTINUED)

May 29, 2009 – Reported to Melissa Martinez during a meeting that I have not received my full commission for the period of March and April 2009.  Martinez says she did not know of when the full commission will be paid and would follow up.

June 4, 2009 – I attempted to follow up again with Melissa Martinez in regards to missing commission. Account numbers for entered sales leads were also included in the email. *EMAIL ENCLOSED

June 9, 2009 – Reported to Melissa Martinez via email about continued ongoing problems with call as previous stated above.  Also received emails from Mission Control indicating that many users are being impacted.  *EMAILS ENCLOSED

June 19, 2009 – In a one on one meeting with Melissa Martinez, I questioned her when I would be receiving my missing commission.  She said she would follow up and still did not know of a time frame.  Then she proceeded to question me as to some calls that were recorded where left unanswered. I advised Martinez that I have had ongoing issues with the phone system and encouraged her to investigate it.  Martinez then accused me of call avoidance and would have to investigate it further.  I rejected all notions of such action.

June 20, 2009 – Received email from Mission Control that Icall logged out many users. *EMAIL ENCLOSED

June 22, 2009 – Received email from Mission Control that Icall is logging or freezing many users *EMAIL ENCLOSED

June 22, 2009 – Reported to Pam Idler, supervisor of Melissa Martinez, of the ongoing problems I have had with lack of commission, recognition and being accused of call avoidance by Martinez.  Idler advised she would research this further.

June 23, 2009 – Had a meeting with Pam Idler and Melissa Martinez.  Martinez advised that she would have to let me go due to call avoidance.  I advised Martinez that this is not why she was firing me and it was because I had told her supervisor on how things had been handled on the team.  Martinez then says she would take that into consideration but her findings stand.

 

WERE THERE ANY PRIOR WARNINGS?  IF YES, WHAT, WHEN AND HOW WERE THEY GIVEN AND BY WHOM?

No written warnings issued due to call avoidance

 

WERE YOU AWARE THAT YOUR ACTIONS COULD RESULT IN TERMINATION?  IF YES, PLEASE EXPLAIN

No because all problems were appropriately reported

 

 


____________________________________

STEPHEN DEAN



When I am President

  • Jun. 16th, 2009 at 7:17 PM

When I am President I am purposing two new laws for this country:

1. Everyone is required to install a mirror next to their front door inside, so they can see what they look like before they go out into the world
2. Everyone is required to go back to Kindergarden for one week every five years to re-learn manners and how to treat everyone with respect
Fail to follow these laws could lead to jail time-including death

Lidia's Birthday

  • Jun. 8th, 2009 at 10:06 PM

Thank you Atif, Shannon, Lids, Dretta, April, Bonnie and PJ for an awesome time this past weekend.

My favs:
Porn Star House
Tequila
Frat Boys
Hot Pakistanis
Dave & Busters
Scottsdale
Mills Ave
Grafti Club Crawl

Found this on the internet

  • May. 27th, 2009 at 6:53 PM



This is the best break up letter ever!

An attempt at dating - Short lived

  • May. 17th, 2009 at 5:43 PM

Contrary to the belief, I have not seen or dated anyone since I broke it off with Mike last year.  I haven't really been in the mood to start dating anyone still.   All the couples I see, gay or straight, seem to be on a emotional roller coaster all the time and I simply do not want to go back to that.

No one should be in a relationship that is constantly on egg shells, but it is far too common.
I don't.  I guess I am now looking for the "one" who isn't perfect, but who truly understands and respects me.

These past two weeks were interesting.  I met someone who I connected with right away.  I was attracted to this person in all aspects and I thought the feeling was mutual.
However the timing was all wrong.  He was still in love with his ex. He was constantly talking about him.  And at the first alarm during a conversation over lunch, he mentioned that he was tempted to see him again.

I didn't want to be the rebound. These never work.  Although he says it had been six months since they were together, his ex still attempted via text or by phone to connect back with him.

No thank you.  I had stop seeing this person before I fell for him and got hurt.

Its weird how time and compatibility go hand in hand when you meet someone...

Sarah Mcleod - White Horse

  • May. 10th, 2009 at 8:18 PM

You know what to do and what's expected of you
This time you walk the longest line

You paint it right
With every single thing you do
Wish I could say
The same for those surrounding you
We never heard it creeping
Ah so silently
What happened yesterday's a mistery to me

Was that a voice?
You thought that you were alone
Truth is she never left when
She said she went home
And you've been calming down
Shifting from your crew
She's been watching you and
Knows your every move

You don't need a white horse
To steer you back onto course you
Know what to do and what's expected of you
This time you walk the longest line

You think about it
And just how it all began
Some people never learn
And don't quite understand
It's true you've been away
But not for all that long
Now all the protocols
Suddenly it's gone

So now you're looking at it
Oh so differently
Your voice is changing
And her eyes, they cannot see
So don't you turn away
There's nowhere else to go
She thinks she's winning but there's
Something she don't know

(Cause) You don't need a white horse
To steer you back onto course you
Know what to do and what's expected of you
This time you walk the longest line

You're gone and I'll go wait on you
Grown up oh so strong it
Happened so fast and baby, it didn't last
This time you walk the longest line

Your strength has built
With every single day you're back
Since that she didn't take this
Sparkle out from your eye
You'd notice where to stand
And where to waltz away
You're growing confidence
Is shining from within

You've got control
(She will see the damage done)
You've got control
(She will see the damage done)
You've got control
(She will see the damage done)
She will see the damage she's done

(Cause) You don't need a white horse
To steer you back onto course you
Know what to do and what's expected of you
This time you walk the longest line

You're gone and I'll go wait on you
Grown up oh so strong it
Happened so fast and baby, it didn't last
This time you walk the longest line
 

Gay Pride Phoenix 2009

  • Apr. 23rd, 2009 at 12:29 AM

Wow
Back to back Atif's parties
Poker Face
Vienna Sausages
Max-a-Trillion
Angry The L Word
Lydia's Pink Contest
Jojo the singer hates everything and everyone
Big Foot Wine Tasting
Deborah Cox
Random "Free Trips" booths
Spiderchild

...and I still get in for free even if I don't know the dude

Start a Club

  • Mar. 22nd, 2009 at 6:02 PM

Old flames are still bitter
No matter the time period
It was

Bills Are Paid

  • Mar. 16th, 2009 at 12:46 PM

Wow finally caught up on all my bills AFTER my initial deposits were made.
What a relief.
Vacation, 5 Days next month. Woot!

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